updated...~

was very busy lately...but at least i gt to on9 with my psp...well bt nt today...i'm in cafe right now...just wanna update my post about my past and...i guess future...well my b'day re over and i'm getting...elder by 1 yr...but not older...got a psp frm my parents...and a watch frm my brothers...well actually i don't really need all these...well its complicated...i dun even noe how to explain it...and now i've my elder bro working with me...both of us wrk in the same kitchen and its getting busy day by day cause its a holiday season...well hope the point for this month re high enough for me to get some new items for my new year...and lately...its between me and my family...well things dosen't goes well till today...i had a big argue with my parents...well haiz...don't wanna talk bout this topic...tears roll down...~ well many things that happen in my life makes me cry...felt like spear piercing into me...well i guess i should leave everything and continue with my dream...well life is complicated...sometimes the things tht you want, you'll never get and in the end you'll get something...that you never ask for...well guess lifes lik tht...sometimes i just want to be alone in a place whr i can come myself...getting away from complicated and stressful life...and good news both of my brothers re going on well with their gf...well happy to hear tht...time for them to treat me a meal...hehe...hah...i've a new trainee in my kitchen...! well i guess...he's gonna get it frm me....someday...i'll scream at him like nobody business...don't blame me...but he forced me to...well if u work very slow...pls train urself to work faster if nt...i've gt no idea wat to say...and don't forget...its a holiday season nw...and we re vy busy...you re working too slow...i can't take it...well i'll give u pressure soon...lol....and yea! christmas is coming...! ginger bread man and ginger bread house...hah can learn to do...and all i want fr christmas...is roast duck,turkey,lamb...christmas cookies...lol....too greedy...and dun forget a cup of hot coffee or chocolate...will celebrate christmas in my walk in freezer...keh keh keh...cold enough for this christmas...XD and Ouch! talking bout the freezer and chiller in my kitchen...i wanna destroy the chiller door...argh....!!! the chiller door fell on me...luck dosen't bleed much it not...i'll bring a hammer together with me to destroy the chiller door....argh...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its all about money...

alright...I'm back now for to cont my blog...its been a long time I've not update...i spend most of my time working and fishing now...and i hardly on9...if i do so...I'll on9 with my phone...and it do cost me a lot and i've a new record...RM200++ for my phone bills...bills kills me too...and later on petrol...RM200 will last for 1 month....well i can still cover all the bills with the money i earn...but might be i need to move back to the busy city so that i can earn double... well, I'm fine with my work now and its busy lately, cause of school holidays and wedding functions...well this Saturday...there's 2 wedding function going on in my hotel and seriously i don't believe it...deposit for a wedding functions in my hotel cost RM 14thousand++...wow...really cost a lot to me...i can use that money to pay for my studies...all i need to do is add another 6thousand...might be I'm not going to marry any1 next time cause it cost a lot...prefer to stay bachelor...all the money is for me...hehehe...! well kidding nia...will talk bout this later...well...i'm stuck here in my dad office, cause my car need repair and i just fixed my car a new amp...cause my old amp re broken...and now it sounds great...well gonna blast all the way to the place i fish tonight haha...and lately my chef asked me to do most of the things...well its just he trust me...well what about the rest of the staff in the kitchen...well i know they are all girls and i'm the only guy in there...but sometimes girls can do things better than guys...its so unfair to them...haiz...i guess that's it...and its time for my lunch...and i'm starving...time for me to get myself out from here and get some thing for my stomach...lol...

life's like this...

what a day...lucky no o.t...if not i'm dead...well 3 staff left...c who's gonna leave again...><><>< haiz...pretty bored now...tot of getting a drink and drive to the place whr i always fish to relax myself...well the place re beautiful during sun set...if possible...i wish to be thr for the sun set everyday...relax myself...get away from problems for awhile...well life's lik this...full with not solve problems...well...am i thinking too much...or there is problems in me...? still figuring it out... and lately i'm thinking of something...well...trying to avoid it...but might be sooner or later i've to confess...i'm so messed up...my brain re filled with complicated stuff and problems...sometimes i wish i can let go earlier...but i don't allow myself to...i don't wanna be lik myself when i was in high school...seriously its embarrassing...don't wanna think a bout it...makes me tired...and i know you do care for me...but its impossible...impossible...

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what a tired day...well...its been weeks i work o.t...and i'm off tmr...well pretty lucky...and off day plan is fishing...! haha....well did caught a few on the 1st time i went fr fishing...was very happy...and i wanna take it as my hobby, cuz its fun...argh...felt heavy...dun really feel well these few days...well i anti medical treatment...so just let it cure without meeting the doc...well well...its about tdy...someone in the other outlets kitchen just make me burst...well fine...i noe u need my stuff...bt at least u wait fr awhile...cuz i need time to cook it...i mean well done...not medium or medium well...cuz its a puff...and he scolded me to closed my kitchen....well, fine...he force me, to go to his kitchen and shout who called me on the phone just nw...but all of them in the kitchen just look at me and does not have the guts to admit, but i noe who called me...well i know ur post re higher than me...but i've no fear...well u tot i'm a new boy there and its easy fr u to bully...well...i guess u re wrong...if u have the guts to do...u must have the guts to admit and face it...seriously no comments...>< i ain't cheap...haiz...still no line at home...might be i need to apply my own...TT

i'm still the same...~ might be...

Its been awhile, I've not updated this stuff here...no more wi-fi in my home...TT so sad...need to purposely drive out to cc and check my stuff...~ Well...well...went back to my collage for classes ytd and its a morning class...and after class went out for a gathering with the rest of my mates...its been a long time i've nt meet up with them and actually my planned is go fr K...its been a long time i've nt scream my lungs out...well the prices they charged for weekends re quite...reasonable...i mean expansive...hehe...so change to movie....bt too bad...went in late fr the movie...cuz of some reasons...well after movie meet up 2 friends that i've know them from the net and and was pretty supprised...well they re nice ppl...and hope to meet up again...some other time...^^got my fav M&M's drom one of them...pretty happy...gonne finished it up in 1 day or everyday 1nos fr me...XD...bt h well, actually i'm supposed to have more time to spend with them...but the thing is...what bout my 2 little dogs at home...well sry bout it guys...might be i should stay over night if i've a meet up with my friends...>< damn...! chef texed me to to work O.T again today...well...i'm just like dummie, doing whatever he orders...TT well...wait and c...i'll be in the same place where u re someday...~~~ ARGH! ppl keep asking me question that i need to crack my head...pls aunty aunty....dont ask me silly question cuz i don't feel lik answering all ur questions...or just cut it short...why not u intro ur daughter to me...== well after listening to my ans...each of u said aiya..! this and tht...well its a crap to me...hmmm~and... well heard u had a better ones now...happy to hear that...and well...pretty lucky huh...might be...hmmm~ i'm still the same...and gratz...^^ might be...i guess that's all...

i'm just like a half dead during the day and i'm a vampire at night...^^

yawn...! its been 2 days...i woke up at 3am just to report myself for functions...and it makes me tired and i'm just like a half dead person going around...well, luck it lasted for 2 days only...i've to carry heavy items up and down, just using the stairs...TT and while carrying things up i accidentally slipped and hurt my knee...ouch..! it hurts...well the pain will just last a few days, ntg much for me to worry about...ytd i've started to work at 4am and i left my hotel at 8pm...went to hotel during the dark and go back in dark ....>< well, pretty lucky today...cause i went back earlier at 5pm, did overtime for a few hours...and i kept yawning when i'm in the kitchen...i was supposed to be full day working for the catering today...but i left the place earlier cause the hotel need my help and so, the chef asked me to return and he'll handle thr by himself, i left the place in a hurry and it takes me 15min to reach my hotel...usually it will takes a bout 25 to 30 min...but since i drove my own car, i speed all the way back to the hotel...^^ was little crazy in the road... almost sleep while driving home today, cause the traffic re slow, plus i'm tired...and once i reach home...i landed no whr but on my bed and less than 5 min...i'm off...well, tht's a short nap for me just now...and i'm out again with my friends in cafe , still yawning here...but nvm, cause i've the blood of vampire...haha...never sleeps at night lolz...well i guess tht's it...and i want to continue with my games...so nitez all and sweet dreams....

i'm as flat as a paper...

wow....I'm totally flat...time move so fast...and i don't even realize...actually the function is on Saturday and Sunday but i tot today is Saturday, crap...what am i think these few days...i still can take it so smooth, till i dun even realize today is still Friday, i woke up at 4 , prepare myself and drove to McD to have my breakfast and then to the hotel, and when i look at my timetable, i told myself...F me...! today is Friday and not Saturday...well nvm, i started my job early but today is seriously busy, I'm preparing dessert for the outside catering 100pax and the rest re busy with theirs, cause I've to go out for catering and in the hotel have function itself and staff re not enough...so everything are in the rushed...i solo on the dessert till i forgotten my lunch and i just had my dinner awhile ago, and i'm going to bed at about 7.30pm cause i need to wake up at 2.30am again later cuz of the function i mention just now...need to report myself in hotel at 4am...wat a messed...but its fine for me, might be after working for awhile, i need to go for holidays to relax myself...everything is in the rush when function starts coming in...and well i just stop smoking and i felt additcted but honestly i didn't smoke or dare to get myself another box or stick but....i've found another way...that is coffee...^^ i love pure black bitter coffee...^^well at least coffee are better than cigeratte...well guys, that's all for today and i'm totally flat now...just wanna said good nite and have a sweet dreams all...

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Its been a busy day clearing my kitchen and i did everything on my own, well i do not need helping hands form anyone and i can do it myself. I do not understand sometimes, why they likes to choose the color of the skin...it doesn't make any sense to me...well its fine to me, cause u re leaving soon...i don't need u here, rather welcome a new person then asking u to stay...and tmr is a war day, my hotels starts to get bz... well my kitchen are lack of man power, cause another is leaving soon and its gonna be 4 in the kitchen...well i'm trying to ask some of my pal to join me in pastry, but most of them re not interested, cauze pastry to them are hard and sensative, well i do agree...pastry re sensative stuff, but once u have the heart to do it, its nothing to you...its just like baking a sponge cake...well pastry item and its equipment are expansive...i've planned to buy a heavy duty mixer tht normally found in hotels kitchen, and the cost is about 2k to 3k for just a table mixer...well its ok for me to spend some money on that too...cuz its an important equipments to me...without that, i'll have to use the traditional ways and it makes me difficult. And with that i can always practise doing all the fine works, and this enable me to archive my dreams, well if i do...i can also be a artist chef...ever heard of artist chefs? well artist chef focus on doing showpiece and beautiful stuff...just for people to view and not all can be eaten...well tht's what they do...can u believe it? a spaghetti stick that is not blanch can be use to form a shape of a butterfly...well dun believe huh? well culinary is almost like magic, we do beautiful and some are just like heaven...this is also another reasons for me... to choose to be in culinary line...well, some people regreted to choose this line, cause the main reasons is, they can stand the tiredness and stressed from the kitchen another is heat, well u can blame...kitchen re warm especially hot kitchen...well i'm a person who can't stays in hot placed, that's why i choose pastry, but i still have to faced the oven...and ovens gives me problems by giving me burn marks and tattoo...well at least its better than hot...so its fine...well i guess tht's it for today again...and i'm off to bed...nitez all and....sweet dreams...

a smooth day..can it be repeat?

What a smooth day wake up at 12 and took my sweet time to prepare myself to work cause I'm working afternoon shift today...job given by my chef are tons...but i did not finish it, well just do whatever i can in 8hrs and i well, the give me the post of commis2...ok fine, I'm happy to get the post but if u put me in commis3, I'll be just fine...all i need now is exp now, and no matter how high i go with no exp. i'm just like a empty can...so no point of giving me a high post now...and i was talking to a coffee house guy today, well he was working in palace of the golden horses before this hotel, he works for 4 years in kitchen but he's still in commis 3...and i'm very luck to skipped commis 3...might be i'll stay in commis 2 for awhile to get more exp before i get the next post...and i was talking to him about pastry stuff...Well, Switzerland is a famous country in doing chocolates and if i do go thr and work i'll have a great chance to learn fine chocolate work but i might need to spend 10K to go and work there...well i'm willing to spend my money to go and learn such things...and Italy is also a great place to learn pastry...well i planned to fly overseas at the age of 20 and be a chef in 27 or 30...well, hoped i can do what i've planned for now...and i'm not staying in this hotel for a long time, cause the management and chef are terrible...i can gurantee, i can handle the kitchen better than the chef right now...i'm not kidding, cuz i'm trained to...might be i should leave before Chinese new year or after...and back to KL...i'll try to apply back KL Hilton and if not i'll try Shangrila or other great hotels...if not...last choice is overseas...out i go from M'sia...Well better not to put too much confident in this cause i'll get myself in trouble for being too confident, this happens to me before in kitchen and taking exams...and people in kitchen do tell me too...too much confident do kills...well, now i believe it...and thanks for telling me...And lately, i felt boring with the stuff i'm doing every hour, that is going for a puff... well last 3 hours is my last stick and there it goes...i'm trying hard to quit it and i did it...just hope i don't get stressed up and i'll do it again...might be...? most proberly not...well when i think it over, it seriously waste my money, and after each stick i takes i felt heavy and it makes me tired...i get excausted very fast...well friends out there, if possible please don't go for puff when i'm around...i've just learn to stop...and oh god...! this weekend i've to be in my hotel at 6am, cause i'll be going out for catering again for 2 days..! and my chef asked me to work O.T...well its fine for me...but at least next week you let me off on Saturday so that i can go back to my collage and attend my class...you re seriously F! gawd damn...! u dosen't have any planning? u think i'm the only guy in the kitchen and u need me? what about, if i'm on M.C on that day? you'll die without me...? seriously crap...might be i should tell u someting...u do have much more exp than me but you are a lousy chef, u dissappoint me...and well i'm leaving very soon, its been almost 3months and i've been following your orders all the time...fine...let's see, next week what you gonna tell me...pls don'y upset me...i've an exam to take...

gt salary...but hv to pay bills ad...TT

Very tired today cause can't keep my eyes close last night, but i still went to work. No matter what, i still can resist it...Well something keeps moving in my mind and i seriously don't know how to explain...hmm...~ nvm just keep it a side till the time comes. And what a pleasure to meet a new trainee in my kitchen...^^ well he's not into pastries, but he is under training, so he've gt no choice, have to go through all the kitchen...well no matter what, still have to teach him something so that he'll be able to learn something...and well well...my car is healthy now and its time for me to rock and roll...! haha...can drive anywhr i want...but the hotel point went down this month, so my salary dosen't makes me smile this month, might be i just need to cut something off so tht it will be enough for me to spend for the whole month and OMG! my phone bills...108...? what the fish...! well tht's normal, still haven't break my last record...if not mistaken is almost 200...^^ haha...dunno who i called...lolz...and aww...my hotel canteen served ugly and terrible food...i'm not gonna have any meals in my hotel till they change their menu...i don't mind skipping a few meals...cuz i'm so used to...i had a ham and eggs sandwhiches this morning till now...its about 6...haha...and i just had 1 meal...^^ i'm so tired and i still need to cook dinner, but well its ok...cuz its for my parents...don't mind doing things for loves ones...ok...i guess tht's it for today...will continue tmr if i'm still breathing...so pray hard for me and i'll pray hard for u guys...^^

dreams tht i want to archive...can i? will i? do i?

i'm off tdy, and i gt my energy fully charged...still no plans today slept for almost the whole day again...took my lunch and then back to my bed...well, i don't mind sleeping after my stomach is filled cause no matter hw much i eat i'm still the same size...sigh...i'm getting bored of thinking...just want to get out of my life and do whatever i like...haha...keep driving and go as far as possible so i do not need to face things that is hard for me...might be, after my studies next year, i'll move out of place where i am now to place where its far, France...Italy or Australia will do or placed i want to be in ...KOREA!!!, if i have the chance...Chef in overseas paid re very well... and the exp is much more better there...if i really want to be the best i can't stick my butt here and rott...i want to wear coat and i want to give myself and my family a better life, i guess this is the best way to do it... and after a few yrs in overseas, might be M'sia will change or might be not...well well...just need help from people so that i'm able to fly out frm here and get a job out there...pastries in overseas are finer...food compatition and good chef are there too...and now its not the time for me to waste, gt to keep myself some cash and off i go...Well, i'm pretty sorry my friends, to said this to u guys, but don't worry...when the chef cap is mine... i'll be back for you guys and all of you will able to enjoy great desserts from me....

feeling free...

haha...^^ was very free today in the kitchen and nothing much to do...juz a few nia...XD rush and finished my job and I've 2hr extra to snake around the hotel...lolz...a parterner of mine who wrk afternoon shift with me took M.C....and i'm all alone in the kitchen...whooo~ scary...lolz... chef went back, demi chef went back and others staff re not around...and i'm all alone in pastry kitchen...I'm incharged...! haha....well have 2hrs free time for me, and so i went to snake for awhile and back to the kitchen to play the marzipan... did a few roses(to ppl who c my pics, tht's for you....!) haha...well if u have a gf, buy a box of marzipan and do 100 roses for ur gf and i'm pretty sure ur gf will be proud of u or carve 100 roses from fruits...lolz...(not bad huh my idea...XD) and i called up u....no! no! i mean u!...ya u...!^^ wanna noe the reasons y? well everybody do care for each other, and once ppl care for u, it dosen't mean they like you or whatever it is...well i pretty sure its just a good things to care for everyone right? Well and i still wanna go on as usual, c when i was staying thr...i got so many spears stabing into me...so y should i keep going on...??? ya! and i noe u had told me b4 it...well should listen to u, regreted it... treating people in good ways, in the end i got myself(haiz...dun wanna talk bout it)...might be i'll just have to go on as usual until the time comes or if not...might be just leave it like tht to dry...TT

(=.=) (@.@) ($.$) (^.^) (+.+)

AHH~ today is better, cause not much job to do...but my job today is all about muffins...filled up 6 large containers with 3 types of muffin....and ya...! got a new dessert but i doesn't really attract me...might be i should do a little changes on it...i mean the chocolate work not the mousse, its too simple...>< and while doing it, a staff of mine asked me to teach her to do chocolate stick. Well, i do so but it came out not really perfect, cause the room temperature are not cold enough...well nvm, at least she gt the method, and good luck to her in trying it out...^^ ARGH! when will my car be ready???!!! my car enter hospital for almost a week ad...TT i've no car to use and my parents have to drive me around...even to work and after...cause of my car, i can't go to mamak or where ever i want...see! i'm a person who can't sit quietly, i'll move around no matter what happens...oh god why are u treating me this way? TT u noe i'll have to go out...sob...~ i can't resist it anymore...i want to go out with my own car...

learn something new that is important for me...^^

Its though for people who works in kitchen, we takes pressure, stress and heat. But no matter what i choose, I'll not regret... recently the pressure i receive is more...but i don't mind i take it as my experience. But no matter how, I'm looking forward to do the best and i want myself to get good result for what I've chosen for my future. As i said, today I'm seriously exhausted, staff in my kitchen are leaving 1 by 1 and i hope, the chef will do something with it, cause things, desserts from my kitchen are not done and we are lack of people to do it. Well, today I've learn something better, prepare a display wedding cake for tmr wedding function. First, i thought it was easy just like preparing mazipan for cakes, but this times i've to handle the sugar fondant. Well it does not tear easily like mazipan when i rolled it, but it will harden if i leave it for awhile, and when i continue to do it when it is harden the whole piece will crack, and it it do...i'll have to thorw it back to the mechine again before i use it again or another short cut way is just to touch up with, something called side decor icing fondant(tht's what my kitchen called) its a soft type when we can piped it and it will turn hard too, after awhile...another thing about handling this sugar fondat... i've to cover the strofoam, after covering it perfectly, i've to crack my head to remove the rest of the fondant that i don't need...i'm still slow in doing it, by the time...the fondand will start to dry and become hard...This is the 1st time for me to do dummies wedding cake(display wedding cakes) but its a little different from the rest. Might be i should work out on it, so it will be smooth when i do it the next time...Well after doing that, i thought of doing my own wedding cake for display in my home, might be abot 3 cakes will be resonable with the colour of sky blue and roses made by mazipan on the side of it...if more than tht, i need helping hands...>< Well, not much to worry about, cause pay will be out soon and i'll have the money to buy the ingredients to do it...hope i can start doing it a.s.a.p.

need to remove the evil in me and be a better person...

Days after days...well everything passed quickly, its been 2 and the half month working here in Malacca and everything still goes smooth, no matter what. Well, its because i take everything easy and nothing much for me to worried about. I finished my studies but the things is, i just want to go deeper into my studies that is degree. But it was quite disappointed, my scores for my theory are not as good as my practical. Well, lots off people thought I'll pass, but don't forget no matter how perfect we are, we'll fall someday. I don't blame myself for failing this time and it doesn't mean I'm a failure, but why not i give a try by taking 2nd time. Simple things are not created for us to worry, might be we just need some time to make a decision or to solve it, and ya! recently people around me said I've changed. Well, might be i do change, i admit i have the bad and the good side. But this time the bad side is more than the good ones. I know I'm better than before, might be i just need some time. We can't change a bad to a good ones in just 1 night, but we can change a good ones to a bad within a minute. To be a better one, parents comes first. I do ask myself sometimes, do i respect my parents? Well, my honest answers is sometimes i don't. Cause i don't really listen to them. The problems is here, i cant change the others of my bad side before this, but i guess i just need time. "Papa" and "Mummy"...please forgive me for being rude, you're the best parents and provide me the best all the time...Well, sometimes parents do nag at us, or even yelled, this is because they want us to go through the correct path, but we as their children have to understand. Might be, the way they teach us or brought us up are a little old fashion, but don't ever forget, this is how they've been brought up, and they had been through everything, and they are walls and shelter to us now. But now times moves forward and things changes, so we have to understand them. "Papa"..."Mummy"...Thank you... I'll make myself a better person and i won't forget what you have done for me...

2nd day of Raya...everything slow down, bt still bz...crap...><

Was a little bz today....cuz hv to prepare all the desserts again...all finished cuz of yesterday functions...and luck my chef was in the kitchen for half day only and he went back to celebrate Raya with his family...so i purposely take my own sweet time to prepare all the desserts again...if i rush and do my job...the other staff will be sitting down in the locker and relax themself...so what's the point? At least i did do something for the kitchen. Haiz even i take my sweet time to do all the things, i gt tattoo frm the oven, might be i'll have to wear long sleevs to cover the burns...lolz....and another thing is....i heard frm my demi chef, might be the exc chef will give me the post of commis 1, i was so happy to hear tht...bt dunno is ture o nt...well, i'm happy enough if u put me at the post of commis 2...bt i'm willing to accept my post as commis 1 if u want ti giv me...keh keh keh...~(greedy)^^ well well... was on the way back just nw and this old aunty tht's wrkin in my hotel does not have any transport back, well if she do, she'll have to wait for the hotel van at about 11.30pm and its a little too late...then i "chin chai"! bah...hitch the aunty a ride back, since i'm on the way back too...well, she's also a nice aunty, always help to keep my kitchen clean...proud to have her in the hotel...^^ giv a clap for her...

tdy and my future...

1st day of raya, was very busy, 2 outside catering functions during the day and at night...another wedding function...well lucky i'm nt taking care fr the night function^^ but i was taking care of the function during the day in MITC...and my pay is double double and double...^^ earn big money in 1day haha...^^ Actually, the function this morning is about 200pax...bt out of no whr, more n more ppl coming in...about 1000 pax...i guess more than that bah...2 person handle pastry item, tht is me and my chef...was a little tired, but i'm used to it ad...well at least i gt a green packet frm my chef...hehe...^^ and and....i'm addicted to a game called Dota...well serious its fun when i'm playing with a groups of friends...well, i'm still a nooby and i'm a meat in the game...cuz other ppl character/hero killed me more than the others...TT...and i heard a sad stories frm my chef tdy while he's driving me back to the hotel after the function...he told me, its hard for us to care for our family when we wrks in Kitchen...well when i think it over, its true...cuz i spend my time more in kitchen than with my family...well, i'm sorry fr myself...bt no matter what, i'll try my best to be thr for my family no matter what happens...he even told me, when he's wrking in Genting last time...we did not get the chance to celebrate Raya with his family and his tears roll dwn...bt now, he's used to it ad...well...might be i'll do my best to change things...and i noe, its tiring when we wrk in kitchen, and its all hard wrk if we climb till the top...and if i want to...i'll have to stand on my feet for long hours...well, sometimes i pity all those great chefs....and even my feet 2 ^^...bt the chef had gone through everything...and i haven't...well, everything gonna start soon...and my target is...in about 6 to 7 yrs...i want to be a jounior sous chef....by the time my age will be around...ermmm.....about 26 yrs old...haha....kinda young....lolz...just my target bah...if cant make it...well at least 10 yrs bah...at age of 30...might be tht time i'll get the post of senior sous chef...and the whole pastry kitchen will be in my hand...haha....

i love pastries...!

Well...well...used to write blogs in Friendster but now, I've changed to blog here...what a surprised...haha...! Kinda exhausted today, finished up my energy by concentrating on what i'm doing(fully focus)...and my wrk is, just sit on my chef chair and help him to remove the aluminum foil that is stick to the sugar work that he prepared...it takes time cause the sugar works breaks easily...something like....erm...a glass! its not easy...haha...well, like i said...doing pastries need patience...if not you'll messed up, just like that day...i was preparing mazipan to cover the wedding cake, and i need the size of 2.5...but i kept thinking of going back and so i failed doing it...but i'm lucky enough cause my chef did not sound me...till the next day i tried again, i focus on it again, in the end i did it...i did a great job...Well, no matter what i'll not give up in pastries cause i love doing pastries...haha....! XD I wanna do it again...be a professional in preparing wedding cakes...lolz...might be i should take some pictures of it...and post it here...^^ and yeah! i'm off tmr...gonna party tonight...watch movie all day tmr...