life's like this...

what a day...lucky no o.t...if not i'm dead...well 3 staff left...c who's gonna leave again...><><>< haiz...pretty bored now...tot of getting a drink and drive to the place whr i always fish to relax myself...well the place re beautiful during sun set...if possible...i wish to be thr for the sun set everyday...relax myself...get away from problems for awhile...well life's lik this...full with not solve problems...well...am i thinking too much...or there is problems in me...? still figuring it out... and lately i'm thinking of something...well...trying to avoid it...but might be sooner or later i've to confess...i'm so messed up...my brain re filled with complicated stuff and problems...sometimes i wish i can let go earlier...but i don't allow myself to...i don't wanna be lik myself when i was in high school...seriously its embarrassing...don't wanna think a bout it...makes me tired...and i know you do care for me...but its impossible...impossible...