life's like this...

what a day...lucky no o.t...if not i'm dead...well 3 staff left...c who's gonna leave again...><><>< haiz...pretty bored now...tot of getting a drink and drive to the place whr i always fish to relax myself...well the place re beautiful during sun set...if possible...i wish to be thr for the sun set everyday...relax myself...get away from problems for awhile...well life's lik this...full with not solve problems...well...am i thinking too much...or there is problems in me...? still figuring it out... and lately i'm thinking of something...well...trying to avoid it...but might be sooner or later i've to confess...i'm so messed up...my brain re filled with complicated stuff and problems...sometimes i wish i can let go earlier...but i don't allow myself to...i don't wanna be lik myself when i was in high school...seriously its embarrassing...don't wanna think a bout it...makes me tired...and i know you do care for me...but its impossible...impossible...

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what a tired day...well...its been weeks i work o.t...and i'm off tmr...well pretty lucky...and off day plan is fishing...! haha....well did caught a few on the 1st time i went fr fishing...was very happy...and i wanna take it as my hobby, cuz its fun...argh...felt heavy...dun really feel well these few days...well i anti medical treatment...so just let it cure without meeting the doc...well well...its about tdy...someone in the other outlets kitchen just make me burst...well fine...i noe u need my stuff...bt at least u wait fr awhile...cuz i need time to cook it...i mean well done...not medium or medium well...cuz its a puff...and he scolded me to closed my kitchen....well, fine...he force me, to go to his kitchen and shout who called me on the phone just nw...but all of them in the kitchen just look at me and does not have the guts to admit, but i noe who called me...well i know ur post re higher than me...but i've no fear...well u tot i'm a new boy there and its easy fr u to bully...well...i guess u re wrong...if u have the guts to do...u must have the guts to admit and face it...seriously no comments...>< i ain't cheap...haiz...still no line at home...might be i need to apply my own...TT

i'm still the same...~ might be...

Its been awhile, I've not updated this stuff here...no more wi-fi in my home...TT so sad...need to purposely drive out to cc and check my stuff...~ Well...well...went back to my collage for classes ytd and its a morning class...and after class went out for a gathering with the rest of my mates...its been a long time i've nt meet up with them and actually my planned is go fr K...its been a long time i've nt scream my lungs out...well the prices they charged for weekends re quite...reasonable...i mean expansive...hehe...so change to movie....bt too bad...went in late fr the movie...cuz of some reasons...well after movie meet up 2 friends that i've know them from the net and and was pretty supprised...well they re nice ppl...and hope to meet up again...some other time...^^got my fav M&M's drom one of them...pretty happy...gonne finished it up in 1 day or everyday 1nos fr me...XD...bt h well, actually i'm supposed to have more time to spend with them...but the thing is...what bout my 2 little dogs at home...well sry bout it guys...might be i should stay over night if i've a meet up with my friends...>< damn...! chef texed me to to work O.T again today...well...i'm just like dummie, doing whatever he orders...TT well...wait and c...i'll be in the same place where u re someday...~~~ ARGH! ppl keep asking me question that i need to crack my head...pls aunty aunty....dont ask me silly question cuz i don't feel lik answering all ur questions...or just cut it short...why not u intro ur daughter to me...== well after listening to my ans...each of u said aiya..! this and tht...well its a crap to me...hmmm~and... well heard u had a better ones now...happy to hear that...and well...pretty lucky huh...might be...hmmm~ i'm still the same...and gratz...^^ might be...i guess that's all...

i'm just like a half dead during the day and i'm a vampire at night...^^

yawn...! its been 2 days...i woke up at 3am just to report myself for functions...and it makes me tired and i'm just like a half dead person going around...well, luck it lasted for 2 days only...i've to carry heavy items up and down, just using the stairs...TT and while carrying things up i accidentally slipped and hurt my knee...ouch..! it hurts...well the pain will just last a few days, ntg much for me to worry about...ytd i've started to work at 4am and i left my hotel at 8pm...went to hotel during the dark and go back in dark ....>< well, pretty lucky today...cause i went back earlier at 5pm, did overtime for a few hours...and i kept yawning when i'm in the kitchen...i was supposed to be full day working for the catering today...but i left the place earlier cause the hotel need my help and so, the chef asked me to return and he'll handle thr by himself, i left the place in a hurry and it takes me 15min to reach my hotel...usually it will takes a bout 25 to 30 min...but since i drove my own car, i speed all the way back to the hotel...^^ was little crazy in the road... almost sleep while driving home today, cause the traffic re slow, plus i'm tired...and once i reach home...i landed no whr but on my bed and less than 5 min...i'm off...well, tht's a short nap for me just now...and i'm out again with my friends in cafe , still yawning here...but nvm, cause i've the blood of vampire...haha...never sleeps at night lolz...well i guess tht's it...and i want to continue with my games...so nitez all and sweet dreams....

i'm as flat as a paper...

wow....I'm totally flat...time move so fast...and i don't even realize...actually the function is on Saturday and Sunday but i tot today is Saturday, crap...what am i think these few days...i still can take it so smooth, till i dun even realize today is still Friday, i woke up at 4 , prepare myself and drove to McD to have my breakfast and then to the hotel, and when i look at my timetable, i told myself...F me...! today is Friday and not Saturday...well nvm, i started my job early but today is seriously busy, I'm preparing dessert for the outside catering 100pax and the rest re busy with theirs, cause I've to go out for catering and in the hotel have function itself and staff re not enough...so everything are in the rushed...i solo on the dessert till i forgotten my lunch and i just had my dinner awhile ago, and i'm going to bed at about 7.30pm cause i need to wake up at 2.30am again later cuz of the function i mention just now...need to report myself in hotel at 4am...wat a messed...but its fine for me, might be after working for awhile, i need to go for holidays to relax myself...everything is in the rush when function starts coming in...and well i just stop smoking and i felt additcted but honestly i didn't smoke or dare to get myself another box or stick but....i've found another way...that is coffee...^^ i love pure black bitter coffee...^^well at least coffee are better than cigeratte...well guys, that's all for today and i'm totally flat now...just wanna said good nite and have a sweet dreams all...

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Its been a busy day clearing my kitchen and i did everything on my own, well i do not need helping hands form anyone and i can do it myself. I do not understand sometimes, why they likes to choose the color of the skin...it doesn't make any sense to me...well its fine to me, cause u re leaving soon...i don't need u here, rather welcome a new person then asking u to stay...and tmr is a war day, my hotels starts to get bz... well my kitchen are lack of man power, cause another is leaving soon and its gonna be 4 in the kitchen...well i'm trying to ask some of my pal to join me in pastry, but most of them re not interested, cauze pastry to them are hard and sensative, well i do agree...pastry re sensative stuff, but once u have the heart to do it, its nothing to you...its just like baking a sponge cake...well pastry item and its equipment are expansive...i've planned to buy a heavy duty mixer tht normally found in hotels kitchen, and the cost is about 2k to 3k for just a table mixer...well its ok for me to spend some money on that too...cuz its an important equipments to me...without that, i'll have to use the traditional ways and it makes me difficult. And with that i can always practise doing all the fine works, and this enable me to archive my dreams, well if i do...i can also be a artist chef...ever heard of artist chefs? well artist chef focus on doing showpiece and beautiful stuff...just for people to view and not all can be eaten...well tht's what they do...can u believe it? a spaghetti stick that is not blanch can be use to form a shape of a butterfly...well dun believe huh? well culinary is almost like magic, we do beautiful and some are just like heaven...this is also another reasons for me... to choose to be in culinary line...well, some people regreted to choose this line, cause the main reasons is, they can stand the tiredness and stressed from the kitchen another is heat, well u can blame...kitchen re warm especially hot kitchen...well i'm a person who can't stays in hot placed, that's why i choose pastry, but i still have to faced the oven...and ovens gives me problems by giving me burn marks and tattoo...well at least its better than hot...so its fine...well i guess tht's it for today again...and i'm off to bed...nitez all and....sweet dreams...